I was ok with being single...NOT!!!

As a single woman we go through waves. "I just have to get a man before I hit this age, so I can have kids, by this age, and retire by this age. "

"Nah, I am good being alone."

"Girl hook me up with your friend."

"Some women just won't get married, maybe I am one of them."

"Girl, I called my ex I think he wants me."

"The Lord is my husband."

"So did you use Christian Mingle or Match?"

"Girl, I am good. I get to travel and do my own thing. I am good."

"I am about my Father's business."

"Maybe this is my season"

In high school, it seem like no one was interested. My friends were always cuter and they got the boyfriends. I was always smart and funny and single alone and by myself.

"Table for 1 please."

My senior year in high school this grown guy (20 something) thought I was cute. We double dated once and then I went to college.

Entering college I thought I would have the same issue I had in high school. Come to find out I was cute this whole time and didn't know it. This body of thinking people actually saw intellect as attractive. I talked them one at a time until they asked for the yum yum. I would exit stage left or quickly dismiss them. I got serious with this one guy 2nd semester, but then.... wait for my book. Even with that failed attempt of a relationship, I just knew as freshman in college I would be married by the time I was 25.

My junior year in college I met another "serious guy" and I just kneeeeeewwwww he was the one. For entire 7 months or so we were sooooooo in love. It took me a while to get over that one. I just knew the Lord had sent him to me.

22 and graduated with no signs of a man. Went back to college to get my Master's. 2 weeks before leaving Clark Atlanta University a "friend" confessed his feelings. Sir, you a day late a dollar short.

I was now 26 back in Houston. I started working. 30 came by so quick. I got, smarter, bigger and more mature in my spiritual walk. I kept going back to my attention black book. (Attention Black Book: Numbers you can periodically call to make you feel like you were cute or still had some game. )

35 came and I was like WELP!!! Guess that means I will be single. I had came to grips that I would be one of those girls who just wasn't worth being kept. I was independent and successful. I was too deep. I love Jesus too much. I didn't wear make up, I wasn't fashionable nor did I have that body that was desirable... well one that was fine enough to be kept and respected. I would see men try to "holla" and know exactly if they could handle me.

Then the thirsty season came... not too thirsty where I would lose who I was in Jesus. Yet, I entertained people for moments at a time who did not want to commit to anything. Let the church say wasted time... I knew they were not the one but I still continued conversation and allowed them to be apart of my agenda just to have that masculine voice on the other side of the table/phone... and I did like the free meals.

I even prayed...Father if this person is not the one remove him from my view. Let, me tell you ...he stop calling... I forgot about the prayer and called him back to make sure we were "cool"....OOOOOOO she was thirsty y'all.

Ok, then October of last year I lost my dad. Something came over me where I would not allow anyone (friends, companions, family) to waste my time. I would stop begging for attention or to be considered as much as I considered them.

I was earnestly cool with the single status. Then here comes this great man in March 2018 . With his saved self!!!!! messing up my single flow. Caring about my well being. Praying for me. Loving me. YEAH!!! I mean pray for real. Making me laugh and stuff.

We have already had "discussions" (verbal disagreements). He almost got the boot a couple of times. Hey!!! I was use to being single and not sharing my emotional space. Let me tell you how we always came back to peace. He or I would say let's pray. We pray together. BEAUTIFUL right!!! Yes, he is not perfect by a long shot. He has short comings and insecurities, but ...I still... love him.

He thought I was worth being kept so he put a ring on it. I don't wear make up. I am not fashionable, I am still big and super serious about Jesus. Guess what guys...This fine man loves all that about me. He makes me better.

He is a strong man who considers my thoughts, intellect, past hurts, love, efforts and he..... still.... loves... Me!!!

All of the shut doors and long waiting time was worth it. It was worth this. It was worth us!!!

Thank you Father God for hearing my prayer.

Y'all pray for us on this journey.

sh